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After long darker dayz n biggest waiting finally the company i got placed delivered the calll date ... April 23 2010..slightly over 70 percent of calls in my mobile r left unanswered nothing planned but all accidental ... lots of hue n cry frm ppl around on tis irresonsible attitude... no wonder call from my company was exceptional... but tis time the telecom industry even helped me ... signal strength was completely nill for few hrs n luckily my cal was placed on those slot... perfect timing i suppose... inspite tis deadlock cal reached my land line,was at home for lunch... din feel lik flying r screamin.. my luck was out-of-order for few years but its back on track.

every first thing in world is spl n always close to our heart.. similarly my first job... the day wen offer reached my hand felt deep satisfication... with hard earned money of my parents vested on education tis was a minimal return i can pay em...

the first time u travel alone frm ur place to new location with alll complete strangers u no wat real world is ... travelling to bangalore is breezy feeling n probably best climatic holder in south india.. actually felt so happy-happy bcoz tat was my dream location... pampered everytime the warmth which made u comfortable will no longer b wit u.... responsibility of takin care of oneself is biggest difficulty...jitters n butterflies will calm down wen u feel u r towards ur heart... entrant as employee in highly sopisticated technically capable office is pleasing above all it was ur effort n preparation tat takes to place... no reccomdation no refrence letter no friends company... signing out to open an bank account only to deposit ur salary ur own personal ID card own desktop own access point .. lots of classes attended spending money frm pocket first ever class(training) in life which pay for ur attendance... education on practical sense with industry ready n biggest claw here is 21 years of severe academics isnt fit enough striaghtly to proceed on... but matter of 4-16 weeks of training fetches u knowledge of life.. funny but true..

wit so many quirks n twists in life wat will one do wit first salary ( mine is RS.18000)... shud i get a watch .. mobile or shud i save money for my apple iphone...neglecting me shud i get my dad a pen r my mom saree r sisters an ipod .... it will take nother few years to do tis bcoz the biggest catch here is im not joining ( it tuk 10 mins to print tis line ) bcoz i was searching for spelling of "not"... my heart weighs more may be unfortunately its not in size of my fist but of wrestler... 3 sleepless nights n days getting longer... not my eyes but my brain first time says stop thinking...

bein rich is advantageous r disadvantage ??? is still women r marriage prepared bodies?? is the word experience tailored made for men??? do we need sentiments in life??? is emotional bonding necessary???

lots of queries r pricking my mind... out of all tis one happy feeling is i knew its difficult to work in my community ... but tat din prevent frm acquiring a job...may be i let down my parents by acquiring a job of jus (2.75 p.a)...maybe im worth for more?? so many scarifices frm my parents who tolerated my faults tis is very minimum i can do by letting tis offer go to bring smile on their faces... every single moment of placement process is still shaded in my memory... now i failed in convincing others... i take tis as positive note... every unachieved desire will bring out you as strong n reliable force...yet nother slip but surely a strong rise is waitng... like every ordinary person i dont want to finish by saying tis will not happen to my daughter r son... still years r left in me... will come back harder...if not big industrailist like my dad atleast an self-earning women...lastly if i wud a have joined the company i wud have surrendered my offer letter which i loved the most... i take tis gift which will stay on till end of my life... certain words in final note reads lots of positive words every failed person writes out of anger... but for me its different... thirst now is even bigger... clueless on wat shud i do .. as of now friends jus wish me luck.. thanks for readin tis as each one holds big sad notes.. all the best buddies...


ps: still my heart says will sum miracle happen as april 23 rd is yet to come..(no miracle happened failed in convincing)